2 Nephi 31:3 For my soul delighteth in aplainness; for after this manner doth the Lord God work among the children of men. For the Lord God giveth light unto the bunderstanding; for he speaketh unto men according to their clanguage, unto their understanding.
And these verses
2 Nephi 32:3 aAngels speak by the power of the Holy Ghost; wherefore, they speak the words of Christ. Wherefore, I said unto you, bfeast upon the cwords of Christ; for behold, the words of Christ will dtell you all things what ye should do.
4 Wherefore, now after I have spoken these words, if ye cannot understand them it will be because ye aask not, neither do ye knock; wherefore, ye are not brought into the light, but must perish in the dark.
5 For behold, again I say unto you that if ye will enter in by the way, and receive the Holy Ghost, it will ashow unto you all things what ye should do.
6 Behold, this is the doctrine of Christ, and there will be no more doctrine given until after he shall amanifest himself unto you in the flesh. And when he shall manifest himself unto you in the flesh, the things which he shall say unto you shall ye observe to do.
7 And now I, Nephi, cannot say more; the Spirit stoppeth mine utterance, and I am left to mourn because of the aunbelief, and the wickedness, and the ignorance, and the bstiffneckedness of men; for they will cnot search dknowledge, nor understand great knowledge, when it is given unto them in eplainness, even as plain as word can be.
I sort of pictured myself after I read this verse fumbling around in some cold, dark cave tripping over myself, falling, scraping my knees, full of naive clumsiness. I have felt lost here and there throughout my life, especially when I have strayed from well lit paths and safety, or when my heart has been broken by careless human beings. I can crawl around on my hands and knees, searching desperately for direction. I can even pitifully find a way around lengthy spaces with my tiny, nervous fingers. Nervous with the delusional energy that if I just work hard enough I can figure it out all on my own. But I think about how much I will always miss out on when I am blinded or when there is not true light opening up the way. I do not want to perish in the dark. I want to see all the ways I need to go. I want to be enlightened.
I recognize that honest light in my life. Just yesterday I felt the reassurance and peace and joy that are jam packed into each beam of light as my eyes search my life for direction, purpose and meaning. I cannot fully describe how grateful I am for this penetrable light in my life. I don't want to spend a day longer than I have to in a myriad of tunnels and dark caves. I feel the light on my face and on my cheeks. It is warm and bright. No matter where I go, it will follow me and warm my soul. It is beautiful. It softens my heart and chases fear away. This is how my God shows me love. There is nothing worse than feeling confused. He promises that when we search for Him, a brightness of light will appear with Him and we will not doubt.
My life just of yesterday is taking another direction than what I supposed it would take. This is not the first time well lit paths have had the light switch turned off by other human beings' choices. I know I cannot do anything about it. But I have a peace that my desires were light filled and good and wholesome. I feel a very quiet comfort in that knowledge. My heart did not betray me, a person did. God did not betray me, a person did. There is a difference. And I can accept that because that is what God has shown me.
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