Healing my heart, one day at a time

Today was an up and down roller coaster.  I woke up feeling a little deprived, the feeling that tells me I am hungry for love or acceptance or contact or meaning.  I basically felt terrible.  (Nothing like a broken heart that makes us feel like we are all alone in the world.)  I went to look for nurturance where I know I can always find it.  I have made a commitment to try and connect with my Heavenly Father daily.  And not the kind of prayers where I ramble off a bunch of requests and then hurry and jump in bed before He has much of an opportunity to respond. (I wonder if he feels like a waitress at a restaurant, filling a tall order.) Today, I knelt down and poured my heart out to Him. I told him how I am sad and alone. I told Him I don't want to be single anymore.  I told him how much I want companionship. I expressed my gratitude for the love that I feel from Him.  I asked for strength to somehow meet all the demands life asks of me that sometimes I don't care to meet.  I was honest with Him.  I felt Him listen. I felt a warmth inside my heart. It filled all the tiny cracks and fractures, the brokenness inside me.  I continued on with my day.  A little sad.  A little pessimistic. A little tired. However, I had a very special experience with a Being who has perfect love for me.  I wasn't going to forget that anytime soon. And if I do, I know what I need to do to be reminded if I should ever forget.  The world sometimes has a way of making us forget that we matter, that we are amazing and that impossible things are possible.  I will always need a little loving guidance to press on.  Thank God!!!