I have always noticed when I am feeling the Spirit testify of God's power and truth that there is an abundance of love. I have heard it described in so many ways. A warm blanket, a burning in the bosom, a peace. It is like a metal detector. I am trying to be more mindful and grateful of those times I can notice a directive,"Dig here!" There is a richness in His love that my words cannot describe. Like I said, it is everywhere. Especially when I feel God is close to me. And I can especially notice I am close to Him when I can easily see others with kindness and openness. I connect with that love and it is spills over. It has a ton of energy. I feel blessed I am able to expend it on my children and in my work with my clients who are in great need on a daily basis.
It has been so beautiful in Utah the last week. My sister and I drove up the canyon to a place called Sundance. The sun was so bright. The skies clear. The air was perfect. The leaves were beautiful. Everything worked together so well and it made me feel happy and so grateful. He provided that experience. He knows how to create joy. It was an indication that He is a God of joy and happiness. He provides beautiful things because He loves me.
I have really been enjoying getting to know an amazing man the last couple weeks. He is such a pleasant person to be around. I never hear him talk bad about anyone or tear anyone down. He is happy. He is caring. I appreciate this experience so much. He is open about how he sees me and what he thinks about me. The best word I can use to describe how the experience of getting to know him has been so far is sweet. There are no strange intentions between the two of us. It is just two people interested in getting to know each other. I read some of the things he says to me over and over again because his words mean a lot to me. I haven't know him very long, but I appreciate his thoughts. I was able to spend some time with him last night unexpectedly. He was pulled off a flight and happen to have a free evening. I hesitantly sent him a text that said, "Call me if you want company." He said he was invited to a birthday party and said he would rather hang out with me. We went to a silly improve show but we laughed a lot anyways. He said he was excited to go so he could hear me laugh, that my laugh makes him feel happy. He held my hand everywhere we went. He is very generous. We talked till 3 a.m. When I got home I texted him,"I'm home. Have a good night. I had fun tonight. Thank you." He responded, "I had a very nice night as well. Thank you. You are awesome." He is awesome too.
I woke up and felt a lot of gratitude for having the opportunity to associate with this kind man. I thanked my Heavenly Father and for right now I am just enjoying this experience of developing a friendship. It's all I need from him right now. He is really special.
I have loved having a little more emotional energy to express affection and love to my children since I my broken heart has been on the up and up. I love squeezing them. I love telling them why they are wonderful people. I love providing things that they cannot provide for themselves yet. I'm still kind of shocked that I have 3 children. My main goal is to love them more than anything else. I want to reflect to them how lovable and perfect they are so they don't ever forget.
I attended a conference for women in my church last night. The messages were so powerful. They talked about the nurturing nature of Christ. I know that He knows how to care for me because He suffered for my sins and infirmities so he would know what I need. I think that is why the lesson to ask Him for what I need is such an important one. He already knows, but the humility and faith included in the asking allows Him to intervene. The Spirit was so strong. I was so grateful to be able to feel it and know what was being taught was true.
I have enjoyed so many of my friendships with my girlfriends too. Women are amazing. I benefit so much from their love and kindness too. Life feels very full right now. And I am so grateful for this fullness. I don't ever want to take these special moments for granted.
Sundance in the Fall
Me in the Fall ;)
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