The Deal of a Lifetime!

A few days ago while I was driving to work, I had a conversation in my mind with God. I was telling Him about some recent fears of mine that involve the unpredictability of life and other certain unknowns.   As I was openly acknowledging to Him my specific doubts and limitations, childishly worrying about myself,  He gently interjected the thought, "If you are not quite sure what you are doing, might as well hand your life over to Me so I can make something sure and marvelous out of it."  It was a promising, "You won't be disappointed!" kind of plea. He makes a really good point. I know this on many levels. If I submit my will to Him, He can do some amazing things in my life.  But tonight I think what was especially important for me to remember is His invitation to use my life in a way that exceeds my own silly needs and wants and instead encompasses a much more selfless view.  I know as soon as I get caught up in the things that involve my needs, my future, my happiness then I have already begun to loose track of Him.  This reframing process will be ongoing in my life.  I'm extremely grateful for it  because it completely shifts my perspective and allows me to trust in God a lot more.

Doctrine and Covenants 98:13

13 And whoso layeth down his life in my cause, for my name’s sake,shall find it again, even life eternal.

That night I had the privilege of meeting with a few clients at work as their therapist.  I receive so much joy from being in a position to assist others through their difficult situations.  That night I felt especially grateful for this opportunity to help guide the lives of others.  I would say my cup of love, joy and peace was spilling over.  It even filled my eyes.  Tears poured down my face.  The joy I feel when I am in a position to love others compares to nothing.  I feel most connected to my Heavenly Father when I am loving others.

I am so grateful for the learning my Heavenly Father offers me as He slowly changes my heart.  I understand that as I offer my life to serve Him and others, He will give me more than I could ever imagine.  He softens my heart which increases my ability to feel love, compassion, peace and joy.  He purifies my heart so I am able to feel the promptings of the Holy Ghost.  He strengthens my heart which enlarges my capacity to love.  When my heart is burdened, He offers light and hope. This refinement process benefits others always.  This refinement process benefits my heart eternally.   I can endure trials with more faith.  As I can increase in faith, God can work even more miracles in my life.  It is marvelous! And as always, I am humbled by the intensity of His love for me.  This powers a form of gratitude I do not even have words to express.

36 Wherefore, fear not even unto death; for in this world your joy is not full, but in me your joy is full.